How do you SLOW down when there's still so much to be done, and your kids and your social life is used to FAST...and yet..your body is saying STOP?!
I have SO much to blog about, and a few cute pictures to share...but mostly the pictures are in my head, because I haven't done a lot of permanent capturing. It's all in here (I'm pointing to my head and heart right now).
And yet I am really tired these days. I keep trying to tackle huge to do lists so that I can rest, but maybe that will never happen because I can't seem to get through the lists before a new list starts. But some things are behind me, like school days (for awhile), moms group (for awhile), and a recent big garage sale undertaking.ou
If I was brave enough I would ask everyone who was attending a baby shower for me, to instead come help me plow through piles here. BUT then again...please don't show up at my door, cause I never would honestly let you IN.
Mike and Daphne are gone for a week and I am doing the single parent show. I don't know how women out there do it - seriously! By the time we get to bed time, I can almost taste the freedom and it is so needed that I get really cranky. Although, I have suffered through crankiness in the late afternoon in hopes of wearing them out for an early bedtime - that rarely works here. Even yesterday they were BEAT, and I laid them down at 7pm..but don't think the last one retired til 8:15pm.
M got up to go potty, to fix her special tent (I was sitting in the hallway playing policewoman), get new books, and lastly to come downstairs, once she realized I was gone to say she was scared and I forgot her song. I was so frustrated that I snapped a lot and I'm not good at always keeping my thoughts in my head. I went up and sang the saddest fastest rendition of Amazing Grace (which felt horrible to ruin that song!) and then came downstairs.
Then GUILT...so I packed up my weary body one more time up the stairs to apologize and she was already asleep. So I woke her up and said, "I'm sorry I was so grumpy honey. I am just SO tired but it was wrong. I love you". She gave me a big neck hug and a sleepy, "That's okay mommy. Now I have to get my rest - I'm so tired". Those were her exact words.
And all was well in the world again.
I'm so glad my kids are so forgiving, because I'm not the mom I want to be right now.
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Cut yourself some slack. Easier said than done, I know, but try it. Can't wait to see you soon!
I have to say I am right there with ya! I have been so impatient with my husband and my poor daughter. I want to cry all the time and feel like I just can't take it any more. I really don't feel like myself. I am really looking forward to having this baby and hopefully my hormones will return to normal, or semi-normal LOL! Just remember you're not alone. Our bodies are going through so much right now. And being diabetic doesn't help.
Be kind to yourself, and give yourself a break! You have a very full plate, and you're always doing something for everyone else. Summers can be so chaotic with active little ones, so I know how you're feeling. I can come up to help you - would you let me in???
We've all been there. Thanks for putting it so eloquently.
We've all been there! Thanks for putting it so eloquently.
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