A Mayflower's Musings

Friday, February 12, 2016

When we moved,  Mike and I found a box of our old CDs still packed from a previous move.  I've been listening to Alabama's greatest hits and the lyrics in this particular song are so much more powerful to me than my days in college years ago....(many years ago-  yikes)

Life ain't all that easy,  I can testify to that.
Been up and down,  and round and round,
To get to where I'm at....

We're only here for awhile,  so why not smile, hey livin' ain't all that bad.  So....

Give me one more shot.

I'll give it all I got.

Let me open my eyes to a new sunrise I pray.

Give me one more chance.

I'll learn to dance the dance.

I'm satisfied,  just being alive-  

Give me one more day.

So many times in the last 5 years I've caught myself feeling bad for myself for things that have happened to me,  to Mike and to my extended family.  The emotions are layered and complex and I guess I'm the end there's been a lot of anger for someone that doesn't get mad very easily.

But I love this song and how it reminds me that life is short, and how I yearn to master the important things while I'm here. 

Just give me one more chance....let me:

Be more patient.

More loving to myself.

Filled with more gratitude.

Smile and laugh.

Want to get out of bed.

Oh please,

Let me be content with my own dance.

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

Halloween weekend!

We have had a fun Halloween.  I'm finding its getting much easier.  I remember when the girls were all small and wanted special hair and makeup and it took me hours to get them ready.  Now they can do a lot of it by themselves and well,  boy costumes are a SNAP!  Superhero bodysuit and mask-  done!!!!

We had our friends the arzners over for pizza and I didn't end up getting any good pics.  Hoping Julie did. The weather was horrid.  Complete monsoon!  We all got pretty damp even with a lot of umbrellas!

It was a very exciting weekend!  Here's some pics from the kids harvest parties, Daphne's showcase, Maisies last game, and costumes all the last two days' occurrences.

Sunday, October 25, 2015

Inspirational Sunday for raising Girls

This idea has been brewing for a long time:  
They are finally old enough that I'm not worried about a choking hazard.  There are now two brushes tied by ribbon to fixtures in the girls' bathroom and they each have own tied in their room as well.  

Tired of us owning gobs of brushes and never being able to find even one!


Saturday, October 24, 2015

While I held down this fort...

Mike and his team were building this cute home for this special family! 

Mike said they were so excited to have running water and light.

Every time we turn on a light or faucet today in our homes let's pause and give thanks for our privileges.

This morning I'm most thankful for my friends that helped me this week.  It wasn't like I was in crisis or anything and Lord knows I fall into the poor me camp way too much.  But it was indeed a long 7 days.  Lots of special moments with my babies and lots of "let's not remember that moment" with my babies.

Now,  off to burn some Lucky Charms (yes Mike I bought them lucky charms this week) off at the gym.  I caved this am.  Maisie made me feel better by telling me that one of the marshmallows is healthy.  What?!  I don't know.  I'm calling them fuel this am.  And then to assist in coaching the above mentioned daughters wet soccer game!

The floors maybe dirty when you get here babe. The fridge may or may not be full.  But we are so excited to hug you and welcome you HOME!

Thursday, October 22, 2015

If rubys a diva I'm....

I'm not super mom....

I cancelled on her today.  Grandpa Mike took Henry for the day unexpected.  I need this day alone so much and if I go to the school midday,  it means I won't get the full peace and quiet I need.

Also I don't have it in me to straighten my hair and look pretty.

I am sitting at Grandhaven feeling guilty.  I just ordered a yellow rose-  doesn't that mean peace offering?  And a balloon that says "I'm sorry".  And sent it to the school for her.

Oh dear Lord please help them understand that I'm so human and I can't do it all.  

Thank you to the following I individuals who have kept me afloat this week.  You are my team!

Dan Ackerman
Julie Arzner
Deb Zollinger
Stacie shaver
Jessi landwehr
Chad Barnett
Kyle shaver
Mike riddle sr
Jayne mercer 

I owe you!