Up in the air

I read this at one of my favorite blogs this am while my house sleeps.  Okay except my driven husband who's at crossfit and my pup who follows me everywhere.  

My life is up in the air for sure.  More now than ever before.  There's no "next I go to college", or next I get a job, and next we start a family.....so many things lay unknown.  A big pretty house standing empty still after 4 years -- waiting for the bank to release it so we can be freed to move on from that ugly date on the calendar called bankruptcy.  

A home to own again-  one that will determine where our kids actually belong in a school boundary.

A mama waiting to go to heaven.  Even yesterday I realized I can't leave my cell phone to go to church because I missed so many calls saying she needed stitches.... What will the end be like for her?

Will there be money for college?  Will the growing pains subside and these kids fly with confidence away from this nest-  me assured I did my best.

And yet I'm reminded by Ann voskamp -  that this life is lived up in the air-  where God is doing the battle for me.  I can rest.  

I'm getting better at it too.  Better at letting others help and raise my kids along side me.  Better at letting this world go and looking towards the eternal.  Oh yes,  it's a daily pulling myself back.

But today this woman is reminding me to pray more.  Funny that I prayed more when things were more certain and when life got confusing I tried to lasso it all back in with my own power.

This am I close this post with prayer...prayer for all the unknowns but also thanksgiving for the most KNOWN of all.  Thankful for this life He gave me.  All.of.it!