Most times I use this platform to see how well I can express my feelings with words. But the reality is the stories I tell start with the truth: I live a messy life- I'm sure not unlike everyone else. And yet, here, so often, on these pages I at least TRY to recreate the mess into a beautiful reflection - ending in a well wish or a blessing learned or a funny moment to be remembered.
Today I'll share just the messy. It's ugly- showing how I operate, how I think, how we all just do our best!
I'll save any learning points for another day. A day that makes more sense to me!
(I'm not being horribly self deprecating in this line of texts....my counselor, just yesterday asked me to keep a food diary which includes notes on my emotions...as I try to work through my insecurities and unhealthy relationship with food)
Epilogue:
We think mom may go to heaven very soon. Meanwhile I'm feeling very sad.